Happy new year! I hope that the first few days of 2015 have been good to you. I’m slowly pulling myself out of my Christmas hibernation and back into the real world.
I don’t really go in for traditional new year resolutions. I don’t find anything where the main focus is giving something up particularly motivating, personally. But I do love this time of year; it feels shiny and new, and a good time to set some intentions. A few challenges – and fun things of course – to tick off throughout the year.
The year that was
2014 was a funny old year. I don’t often write about personal things on the blog but here goes nothing…
About this time last year my relationship ended, one which spanned almost a decade and pretty much all of my twenties. It was a strange, uncertain time. In February I moved in with my parents full time (something I hadn’t done since I was 19). To be honest, I felt like a bit of a failure; almost 30 and living at home in a spare room with nothing to show for myself. Many pity parties were had, I can tell you.
But I live to tell the tale and there have been a lot of positives to focus on too. When I look back at 2014 I feel a stronger, more confident person. I’ve learnt to drive (I didn’t quite achieve my goal of passing my practical test by the end of the year but I’m not far off), I travelled abroad by myself for the first time to Amsterdam for my 30th birthday, I ran another 10k, improved my time AND raised £250 for Macmillan, I developed a regular yoga practice, I went to my first festival, my first blogging conference (much social anxiety overcome), I spent quality time with family and visited friends around the country, I learnt to use my DSLR properly, we got Fi & Me stocked in an actual proper shop, I delivered a huge project at my 9-5 job, I saved money, and I had afternoon tea! Yes that was actually one of my goals for 2014.
So when I look back on the year, I mainly feel happy and proud. I’ve not done anything incredible or outstanding, but I’ve been grateful for what I’ve got – and that feels pretty awesome my friend.
Intentions for 2015
I’ve always liked the quote above (I thought it was a line from a Paul Simon song myself, but it’s often attributed to Carl Sagan and Carl Sandburg, who knows?)
It dawned on me recently whilst contemplating my goals that whilst I have lots of things I want to DO, I don’t really pay much thought to the bigger picture. So I’ve spent a bit of time thinking about what matters to me, and then I thought hell, why don’t I just spend the whole year dedicated to exploring that stuff – trying new things, learning?
Sure, I want to pass my driving test, visit my friend in Spain, learn to weave, grow my tiny business, run a half marathon and all that jazz (no honestly, I’m going to run a half marathon!) But I also don’t want to limit myself to a set of things I MUST do – or just feel plain bad about when it gets to November and I’ve not done half of them.
And if the last year has taught me anything it’s that the stuff you never planned for while you’re doing all the other stuff you did is actually where it’s at. So I’ve decided to take steps to simplify things, make more space for the things I enjoy and people I enjoy spending time with, move more, get outdoors, embrace my creative side and take what opportunities come my way.
2015, let’s do this!